I am afraid if judgement, probably because
I know I deserve it.
My actions scream from the ground
Like the blood of Abel cried to God.
I would like to believe in grace, but
There is so much anger, I see.
I have heard of a God full of grace, sought Him;
But His image on earth is so full of anger.
Perhaps I am not looking; my fear
Holds me in this place of silent conviction.
Also, I fear I do not understand God.
I am told He is full of grace.
I accept the statement but do not
Believe it fully, because I have no grace for myself.
I fear judgement because I judge myself
Always declaring myself guilty.
Father, save me from myself, for he
Keeps me away from believing Your promises.